My third baby goes off to school this year and a new time begins for me.  I'm not sure how I'm going to feel after I drop her off at school, but I know I won't like it one bit.  See no matter if one of my girls was in school, the other would stay with me and this went on and on for years.  This will be the first year I will be alone.  All alone!

Working from home is now going to take a turn and this will signify a major change in my life.  My baby is going to school and for half a day I will be alone to ponder my existence!  A bit tragic but I don't want to feel this loneliness.  I'm just not prepared for this.

"Just one more year at home" I hear my mind telling me.  "Home school her" is another.  I know that what is best for my baby is for her to begin getting a good education.  I might just volunteer and be near my little girls.  That's one way.  I will find a way.

I'm just grateful these two will go to school together for two years.  This will be the only time they'll be together so they will enjoy this time together.  I know Camila is so incredibly happy about it.  I wish I could say the same thing about me.  But I will get over it, I have to.  They can't stay babies forever and it's time I start facing the inevitable. My babies are growing and this is a time to celebrate and not be sad about it, at least not show it on the outside.

I will survive!