Just sitting here thinking about all the time I've wasted thinking about things I could never change. Pointless, senseless, hurtful things. For years I lived in self pity. Always internalizing my fears, my doubts and my agony of past events that haunted me. They eventually consumed me, little by little, I began to lose sight of who I really was. I felt controlled. I felt manipulated. I was a hot mess.
I'm done.Those two words meant a whole new beginning for me. When I finally said those words with resolve and without fearing for myself, I felt empowered. I felt like I had my voice again. If I wasn't going to stand up for myself, then who would? Memories were haunting me. Regrets. Always thinking of the past as if whining about it would do me any good. It never did and I finally knew that.
When I broke free from my past, I felt such an immense sense of relief. Like a ton of weights had been lifted off my chest. I was suffocating, I could hardly breath. When I finally let go of the hurtful memories and made a conscious decision to start over, I felt free. You know what happened when I finally felt free? I felt happy. There is nothing more amazing that self confidence!
This is why happiness is such an important part of my message now. Because I know what it feels like to be in the opposite side of the happy spectrum. You don't want to go there, let alone stay there. Trust me, it's a terrible place to live at. But what I didn't know then what that I HAD A CHOICE. I actually had a choice to leave sorrowland and come to the happy side? Yes! We often don't think we have a choice, but God almighty, we do, and when you finally realize this, it feels like a chocolate cupcake with a cherry on top from Smallcakes!
Choose to be happy today friends. Choose to not let the past consume you, worry you or control you. Choose to let go. Choose to be the person you've always wanted to be. All this is your and only your choice to make. Don't let someone else make this decision for you. This is our time to finally seize every single moment and make it our own. Choose to be the you you've always wanted.
Just make the choice and your happy place is right around the corner. Trust me. Happiness is more than just a feeling, it's a state of mind, a way of life that is completely within your reach.
Let's be Happy Together!